Its already 3.02am and yet i still cant sleep..
yesterday was supposed to b a hapie day for me and baby..
was supposed to mit him in da morn at ard 7.30 n yet i slept lyk a pig till 8...

first tink i did wen i woke up was call him
he was oreadie back home..
damn..
earli in da mornin ma mood was spoilt..

get ready and left for his house..
dats ma daily routine before sch starts..

was smsin him all da way frm ma ouz till wlds interchange..
i was walkin towards bus 913 queue wen someone was holdin on to ma waist..

turned n saw tat it was baby..
he suprised me..
i was so touched tat he came to fetch me cz he cant wait to mit me..
it was rainin too.
was bloody surprised..

was in high spirits da whole dae till..

sumtym in da aftann...
baby was moody..
he pulld away wen i kiss him and pulled hmself away wen i hug him..

it hurts me deep tat he did tat..
as tho he was feelin disgusted..

afta sumtym he cooled dwn n everitnk was bck to normal..

otw back to send me home..
in da bus..
his latest ex sms him..
i dun reali myn so he replied her sms..
so on..
and so forth..
all da wae till we reached ma ouz..
till he started werk..

told me everitink dat she smsed him..
he didnt wanna kp tings frm me..
but it was frustrating n upsetting..

she was lyk purposely reminiscing da past..
knew he has a soft heart..
was some sort of hinting tat she wants a patch..
even sms him sayin tat she still love n miss him..

wat was i supposed to feel?..
n now i gez hes confused..
cz he used to fuckin love tat fuckin girl..
damn..

wat m i to do?
he said he loves n wants me..
bt he didnt wanna break her heart to reject her..
bt he dont have feelins for her..

n nw,im in da middle...
so jaded..
so confused..

fark her for spoiling our happy day..
lyk i said..
yest was supposed to be a happy day..

n i oreadie get ma payslip..
435... but i will only b able to use 140..
da rest?
bills
sch stuffs..

fark..
n ma fuckin period is late..
darn..
tania's gonna b a godma again..
same goes to jessie..